Am I Scared?

This is another question I have been getting asked.   Am I scared??      Frankly, No I am not.   Why should I be?    When I tell that to people the response I get is usually something like "Oh, I would be so scared of those trainers."   For starters it's not going to be anything like you see on TV.   Jillian is not going to be anywhere near the resort.   From what we are told, the trainers aren't going to be yelling and screaming.   They want you to confide in them.  They want to build you up.   By no means am I scared to be doing this.   If I was scared, I wouldn't be doing this.    Maybe, my excitement is covering up the scared emotions, but I doubt it.

I know that my entire weight loss journey won't be finished the second I walk out of the Resort doors.    It wasn't all put there over night so it's not going to come off overnight.     When I first accepted the idea of going to the resort I had an image in my mind that I would lose ALL my weight while I was there.  It took a little while to understand that I would still have to work just as hard after I got home.  Plus that it is going to be twice as hard after leaving the resort.    I am going there and being dropped off.   I will have no source of transportation other than the resort shuttles that take us to and from our hiking locations every morning and the weekly trip to Target.   I will be living there, not having any temptations around me, having all of my meals being pre-portioned and prepared.   Maybe after a month my mind will have adjusted itself to this way of life, but coming home I will have ALL the temptations around me.    

I am a classically trained french chef, which means that we know how to use cream and butter in just about anything and how adding butter or cheese to just about anything makes it a million times better.   It's going to be a big adjustment for me.  However, it will make me that much better of a chef.    How many chefs out there will know how to make the most decadent burre blanc (A wine, cream, and butter sauce), but then turn around an know how to make an entire entree that takes just as good,  but has fewer calories than just the burre blanc alone!   Not only do we get a few cooking and portion control classes included with the program, I have also arranged a few private lessons with their chef.   EXCITING right?!?!?

Another reason that I am way more excited than scared is the fact that it is WARM!   It may not be summer temperatures but I am sooo ready to spend some time outside.   To feel the warm kiss of the suns rays on my skin as we hike through the beautiful read mountains of southern Utah.    Plus, every Saturday we get the opportunity to go to a state park such as Bryce or Zions and hike though there as well!    By no means have I ever even wanted to hike anywhere, but something has lit up inside me that has this burning desire to go exploring!

My entire life will change next Friday.   My current reality will be a thing of the past.   Friday my life becomes all about change, workouts, and healthy living.   What things that I find impossible now, will I find most exciting then.  Maybe I be able to see my toes for the first time.   Maybe I'll be able to get out of a car like a normal person.   How soon will I be able to tie my aprons on like a normal person where it wraps around you and then come back to the front.   Can I finally shop in normal clothing stores?  Can I finally feel like I am wearing a shirt and not a bed sheet??     Maybe even a nice suit, not that I have anywhere to wear it to, but at least know that I have one!   Better yet, maybe the best feeling will be when I can walk into any clothing store and know that I will be able to find something that fits!   All these little things that I have never been able to do, at least not in my memory, but that you may take for granted every day!  

My grandma (Kathy Buhler) shared something with me this evening that has really helped inspire me even more!   Help me keep things in perspective a little bit and I just wanted to share it with all you!